Kokkuvõte, soe ja jagamine.

Nii vajalik on teha kokkuvõtteid.
Meie jutustus Sandriga oma rännust sai esmakordselt täispikkuses välja räägitud. Me polnud ise ka seda kunagi nii teinud ja kogemus oli suur. Läksin koju justkui oleksin tulnud pikalt rännult, kus kõik ümber on uus ja kus mõte on avar ja piiritu.

Internaadi saal osutus ütlemata mõnusaks ja hubaseks ruumiks, kuhu mahtus just parasjagu inimesi. Mõnus oli näha oma klassijuhatajat, vanavanemaid, pere, sõpru Tartust ja Tallinnast, lapsepõlvesõpru ja teisi inimesi, keda meie ränd kokku kutsus.

Polnudki küsimust, mida rääkida - kõike, mis parasjagu pinnale ujus. Muidugi oli vaja paljut ka ütlemata jätta, sest ühte aastat paari tunni sisse on ikka päris kunsttükk mahutada. Tasakaalustasime Sandriga teineteist, et tervikpilt oleks nii detailne kui ka ülevaatlik.

Minu jaoks oli murdepunktiks see, kui rääkisin Kanada purjetamissuvest. Laulsin ka "Leiulaulu", olles ise üllatunud, kui hea tunne seda teha oli. Jutustasin, mida tegime paadiga ja sellest, et jätsin oma tagasilennupileti kasutamata ... ja siis ühtäkki avastasin end pisarates.
Tundsin, kuidas terve ruum oli minu kurbuse tunnet täis. Inimesed tundsid ka.
Võtsin end kokku ja laulsin meremehelaulu "Haul away Joe", mida Ty mulle õpetas.
See tõi mind kohale, rahustas, ja lubas jätkata.

Isegi kui on kurbust, on nii hea seda kogeda - see on tugev, see on midagi, mis liigutab.

Palju on õppida sellest, mis on siin, Eestimaal.
Ja ema ütles, et kui ütlesin, et lähen Ameerikasse, ei arvanud, et olen hull. Aga kui ütlesin, et tulen Rakkesse, mõtles ta küll, et olen hull.

Järgmine hullus - eks see olegi minekurada. Hullus = hirm?

Aitäh kõigile,
kes on kaasa mõelnud,
seda praegu teevad
või kes kunagi siia satuvad.

Üks reis
võib olla terve elu.

Growth with the Family

What a wonder it is to be born from a Mother and to be inspired by the Father.

Two persons bring you into this world. And no matter how you communicate with them when you grow up, they have been the holy channel to this place, giving you a body to use, patterns to reshape and things to give up to.

In one moment they start to be your friends as well. You see the beauty and strength of accepting each other. There is this unconditional love in the bottom of all the layers - this is what gives you the chance to work on finding it and bringing it into bloom. Sometimes there is not much else to do about it than to live your own life to its fullest and surest. This will inspirate your parents too, cause they see you, even if you don't speak to them. Connection is there, from the beginning of your existence.

Forgiveness is the greatest.
Problems will solve themselves when you let them loose.
Light comes out (appears) when you bring Love in.


Family - I love that there is such a thing in the world!


Brother is sleeping in our travel tent in the garden.
It's morning.
It's Norah Jones' voice.
It's smooth.
It's the Day of the Acts.
It's time to live. Again.
Again.
Again.


And with all the time we are together, we grow. Inevitably.

Brother Seagull taking a look to the vastness of one kind. The Sea and Sunset.

Tallinn, Estonia

"Iga päev, mis meile antud on, ära lase käest."

Mari Kalkun

"Väiksed kallid Marid."

Warmth Moves. Italy. Benevento.

What is it?

That it all changes - feeling and understanding about the aspects of life inside.

First time again I think about travelling,

about being on the road or in a place where I wake up in the morning and I don't know what the day will bring - I have all the freedom to decide what opportunities I take to live.

Now I am in the plan - studying about satellites and ocean. Some things are interesting to me, but some talks are vibrating so tough and tense that I am unable to be in sync with them. I see that I am not willing to think about marine optics all the time. Flowers on the roof caught my attention. Making pictures through sunglasses made me happy. Concert in an archeological site gave me the feeling of magic and wonder.

Life now is a matter of perspective.

Mexico comes alive.

In tonight's dream I saw myself hugging with Alex, the Hawaiian girl who has left her Earhtly form. We were saying goodbye. The feeling of love and care was so strong. And her dark long hair were feelable when I hugged her.

Maybe she is leaving the planet now. Or maybe she is incarnating again and leaving the spirit form and old human form behind. Maybe I will meet with her when she has found a new body...

And it even doesn't matter. When it happens, I will know.

It takes time to understand and learn about life and living. And there are so many aspects that will reveal themselves only when you reach to them. You cannot go slower than your shadow. And you cannot go much faster either. Some laws work on this planet.

Still,

there are many viewingpoints and things can seem very different.

Rebel in me is rising its head.

Time will tell.

What you wish
you will get.
And you don't need to make an effort,
just relax
and let the World to handle it!

Talks with the Mother Earth

Deep breath of the air close to the chestnut tree. This tree has said to be mine. I do not own Her. I do love Her. And when I appear in Lääne-Virumaa, my parents home, I go and say hello. She appears in my thoughts sometimes even when I am physically away from Her.

On this day I gather some springflowers, white and blue, and take them with me. Forest is calling. There is an Oak-tree there, which is another good friend of mine. He has heard stories from my heart, tears and joys and silence.
I look at the evening sun through the trees, my back leaning towards the Oak.
My sight goes down and seemingly still ground appeares to be moving, growing and living! A little black spider is crawling on the leaves of the last year. She makes fast movement, but has time to stop and look around too. There is a shadow with her. And this shadow changes its shape as the spider is moving. Shadow has many shapes and some of them do not look like a spider at all! What a sun and what a spider - together they give life to another creature - the Shadow! And this one is so unpredictable and certain at the same time!

I go, towards the stone which came into my mind now. I found this stone one time, walking in the forest. It was buried under the moss. There are patterns on this stone and I hear stories of the big travel from the North from Her. She is calm and old and has some secrets with Her.
I find her, though She is under the moss again.
Without really thinking I know that those flowers I am carrying with me, are meant to put on the stone, into the concavity. I make pattern with them. 9 flowers, 5 blue and 4 white ones + 5 leaves.

My wish is to live like the Nature - following the rythm, being gentle and firm, being creative and still, being eternal and mysterious and so simple.
Everything what happens in the nature, happens with ease and joy and glory.
Human mind makes an effort to describe and understand it. Long mathematical equations and models are created in order to prove it and talk about it.
But the thing we are talking about, is so simple!
Maybe that is why we cannot crasp it - we are usually not so simple and there is not so much silence in us.... The Nature talks to us through our own voice. That is why it is hard to recognize it.

I saygoodbye and go straight to the Chestnut - I am carrying a message from the Oak and from the Stone to Her. I put my forehead against the tree and this is how the message is given. I do not know much about it, but I feel like I can be the messenger - who can walk and move and transfer.
A Birch in the middle of the garden is waiting to hear greetings too...

Mother Nature likes us to walk on Her, to touch and to admire and to get inspired. She is infinite support, peace and love.

Listen to the birds, singing their songs of joy. They love to wake up every morning - to cheer up the day, to enjoy the fresh air and the rising of the Sun. The life on Earth is as simple as that.

Loodus.
Loovus.
Loodu sees.
Loodu.
Looja.
Lugu.
Loo.

White Metal Tiger

 

This year came to us in the middle of the night, 4 AM. We were in the forest like this tiger, snow high up to our knees. Marian, Sander and Mihkel formed a triangle.

New Moon.

Wishes and Prayers.

This year will bring simplicity and wisdom, community and solitude.

Things which cannot be told with words, are coming into the presence. Open your heart.

I, born also on the year of the tiger, feel empowered and in balance. I am glad that it happening now.

People from the world, friends I have met on the road - some of you have reached me just now and I feel so grateful and inspired by this. The world really is round and just as small as wide are our minds.

I am studying about non-linear and quantum physics and it reminds me that

how we think about the things matters.

This creates the reality.

This is the choice.

And the smallest particle chooses its path and turn just according to the thought. Until we do not decide, there are all the options available. 

We think all the time - we choose all the time.

Be concious about it.

Bring your awareness here and be responsible of your life.

~*~

Exercise of Communication

~*~

"Peame vabanema kinnismõtetest ja hirmudest"

Eesti Vabariigi Presidendi - Toomas Hendrik Ilvese kõne - 02.02.2010.

"Peame vabanema kinnismõtetest ja hirmudest," - nii hea on kuulda seda meie riigi juhilt. Riik on tõesti nagu inimene oma mõtlemisega - kui heietab minevikuvägitegudest, unustab praeguses elada ning ei julge ilusat olevikku märgatagi ja luua.

Newtoni ja Einsteini avastuste ja arusaamiste märkamine on päevakajaline ka mulle, just praegu.
Paar esimest lehekülge modelleerimise loengus soovitatud raamatus "Universum Pähklikoores" panid mind soovima seda edasi lugeda ja vahest ka enda raamaturiiulist teinekordki üles leida.
Lektüür laieneb tõepoolest.
Paar kilo kirjandust tassisin koju täna juurde TTÜ raamatukogust.

White is my view. Church towers of Tallinn Old-Town are making sharp figures into the snowflaked-sky.
Irish folktunes do appear in my ears.
"Made in Heaven" is a recording from Queen, showing its label.

This is my first time in Estonian National Library.
I feel satisfied and proud, like something just fell into the right place in me.
This place is good for focusing and learning. Abuntant access to music is also available.
There is even a piano-room if I want to pay 25 EEK in an hour.

Limestone is around. This building is strong and heavy. Feels very grounding. Limestone is our national stone and old and good buildings are made out of this. Modern plastic is just nothing compared to this. Maybe that is the reason why people working and living inside of concrete and plastic do feel confused and ungrounded, cause there is no support from the building. I feel like the materials around us vibrate and they influence our vibration as well - we do are excisting in the same time and space! Isaac Newton has said that already and not to mention quantum physic guys who have found out that even our thoughs do make difference regarding to the smallest particles inside everything there is.

Yes,
then this world I see and feel around me is just a reflection of my thoughts. It is an illusion.
Good things in it are illusionary.
Same with the bad things.
Maybe they can dissolve into each other when the time is right and then they do no work as measurements anymore. Then they can be descriptions, with no power to influence our inner balance and mental state. Would that be boring?

Every single day of my life I can be awake and in creation!
Can it be better?

Newtoni III Seadus ja Ideokineesia

Igasugune mõju on samal ajal ka vastastikmõju.

Vastastikmõjus olevad kaks keha mõjutavad teineteist moodulilt võrdsete ja suunalt vastupidiste jõududega, mis on rakendatud kummalegi kehale. See tähendab, et jõu järgi saab keha otsida - kui on keha, on ka jõud.

Newtoni III seadus on aluseks jõudude otsimisel ja selle järgi keha otsimisel. See on tähtis asjaolu, sest inimene otsib vähemalt pool ärkveloleku ajast kehi, mida ta arvab endal vaja minevat.

Näited:
Miinide otsimine.
Kehade otsimine kosmoses.
Inseneri praktikas kehade purunemise põhjuste otsimine.
Toidu otsimine.
Paarilise otsimine.
Mööbli otsimine.
Tegevuse otsimine.
jne.

(põhiline osa teooriast leitud Arvo Mere konspektist)

Newtoni III seadus - vastastikmõju seadus.

Füüsika tõestab oma sügavat olemust ja äärmist põnevust.
Mõelda vaid - külmkapp mõjutab enda all olevat pinda jõuga, mis on võrdne ta massi ja raskuskiirenduse korrutisega ning siis omakorda mõjutab külmkappi alt ülespoole teine jõud, mis on võrdne külmkapi jõuga, kuid mida me ei näe kui teist külmkappi, vaid see jõud on peidetud nt. põrandalaudadesse ja maja konstruktsiooni.

Samamoodi kui meie avaldame jõudu pinnale, kus viibime, mõjub meile vastujõud, mida tajuma hakates võime saada teadlikumaks oma tasakaalust ja oma kergusest. Sest need vastassuunalised jõud on alati tasakaalus ja seega on meie loomulik olek Maal viibides olla samuti tasakaalus. Katsugem see teadmine panna praktikasse ja avastada endite loomuomane sirgus, kergus ja harmoonia!

Sellest kõigest räägib ja tegeleb IDEOKINEESIA.
Võin omast kogemusest öelda, et vastavate harjutuste tegemise mõju on kehale täiesti tunda. Näiteks jalad hakkavad ise kõndima ja käed-õlad ärkavad elule ja kergusele, selg sirgeneb ja muutub paindlikumaks. See toimib visualiseerimise ja peentaju abil. Maagia muidugi. Aga just samapalju ka lihtsalt füüsika.

"Ideokinesis is the process of using mental imagery to affect the body’s postural alignment in order to bring it into greater equilibrium."

Minu jaoks igastahes läks toas tuli põlema, kui füüsikat õppides taipasin, et tegelen sama asjaga, mis KehaMeeleKoolis trennis käes. Teooria ja praktika kohtuvad ning sünkroonses 2010-ajas juhtuvad imed ja harmoonia valitseb ruumi ja aega.
Niimoodi on küll ikka õnn elada.

Salapärane surin ja erutus on sisenenud mu kehasse, kui õpin füüsikat, kuulan Arvo Pärt'i "Für Alina" plaati, tajun köetud ahjust hõõguvat soojuskiirgust ning kuulen akna tagant harva mööda sõitvaid autosid. Jõulutuled põlevad riiuli küljes ja kass Kristo sahistab aeg-ajalt kott-toolis. Mu voodi on rulli keeratult diivani peal ja pool keha on mässitud kaamlivillasesse tekki.
See on minu jaoks uus Luise-tänava idüll.

Valge

Valge ruum on südamesoov.
Valge tähendab avarust.
Valge tähendab valgust.
Valge tähendab kergust.
Valge tähendab tühjust.
Valge tähendab täiust.
Valge tähendab puhtust.
Valge tähendab siirust.
Valge tähendab armastust.
Valge tähendab vahetust.
Valge tähendab mõistmist.
Valge tähendab kuulamist.
Valge tähendab jagamist.
Valge tähendab lihtsust.
Valge tähendab tingimatust.
Valge tähendab pitsi.
Valge tähendab lambanahka.
Valge tähendab lendamist.
Valge tähendab mäletamist.
Valge tähendab unustamist.
Valge tähendab vähest.
Valge tähendab paljut.
Valge tähendab ingleid.
Valge tähendab loobumist.
Valge tähendab soojust.
Valge tähendab kargust.

Valge tähendab, et olen Valguse Teel.
Valge ruum on mu sees.
Valge vaip mu talla all.
Valge vaas kapi peal.
Valged karvad kassi turjal.
Valge pitsiline päevavari lambikupliks.
Valge karvamüts külmadeks ilmadeks.

*

Andes ajale rohkem elu,

anname elule rohkem aega.

Stefan Klein

*

When I am surrounded by bliss I still keep on doubting, I keep on searching for the reasons why things aren't still good enough. That sounds just stupid!
Is this the real challenge - to understand that I am already happy. That my life is just on the best path. It is the only real path I am on.

Things from "out there", from friends I have met during the last year, they pop up into my reality here and some ache comes along, some longing and missing... And for now I have decided not to fly to Canada on the 29th of Dec. Still, I am taking this flight part-way, until Amsterdam - I will have a chance to get some other angle and fresh air from Estonia. I am visioning the moment when I step out from the airport, falling into the tears.... just realizing that I am not taking the chance there is for me... chance to take a boat across the gulf and be there, back in Victoria, on the shores of ocean, seeing white mountaintops of USA, meeting with strong winds and rough stones, and Freya, and friends.
There is pain there. I am feeling it. And I am asking why is it there?
Is it there for me to go and see or is it there for me to observe from a position of peace?

Endless questions. So many doubts.
I have been changing my mind so many times during this time in Estonia (more than 2 months for now) that people close by have lost track and they are not trying to understand anymore... and I have gave up the need to discuss and also share my last "decision". Useless.

The World is changing all the time and now I am experiencing it full-on! What am I learning from it?
Well,
I must say that this turmoil makes me want to stand solid and grounded, taking deep breaths and looking through illusions, asking more from the body than from the mind. Mind gets caught into thoughts and emotions get caught into longings. I cannot trust them.

Yes, there is this change and all that, but I have decided I am not confused anymore. I am just living every day as it comes. And I am more just in a position of accepting and not going out there to look after...  I see that the world hasn't stopped moving and things really do come to me.

My biggest fear is to get stuck in here, to do "wrong" things and to "give up my freedom".
So,
I might just need to do it all - face the fears and go to University, live in the centre of  Tallinn, sing in Pandivere choir, fall in love of life, be here and now, write letters to those ones who are not near by and knit some gloves and socks and take it easy.


Life comes and goes. My dear friend Alex with whom I had heart-connection already in Rainbow and then she came to Horse Caravan and we got even closer, singing songs together..., she went to travel in another realms, she left the earthly body behind there in Costa Rica.
I cannot be truly sad, cause she let me know that this was the choice of her spirit and that while being alive it is so important to follow your heart and to live the best life you can imagine. She also reminds me to write a book, cause she was waiting for it already when we just met... I am now waiting for a response from a publisher in Estonia - whether to continue with it. We shall see.

Alex also teached me a song and I had forgotten the words and my wish to her was that she will remind me those somehow so that I could sing it again... This really did happen, last night when I was listening to another song... those words just came to me and I found it from the internet. You can listen to it hopefully from here
Womb Of The Earth:
https://youtu.be/svV5Ajw3HO4
There is another one called - May I Be Strong - those ones she taught to me, those ones speak with me strong.

Womb of the Earth

Sasha Butterfly

the blessed gift this child brings
the veil will open when the angel sing
the blessed gift this child brings
the veil will open when the angel sings
and the arms of the earth are open wide
recieving the blessings from inside
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
brought here from the earth and sky
an angel of light come here to try
to remind us of the the simple bliss
that lies within a mothers' kiss
and the arms of the earth are open wide
recieving the blessings from inside
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
divine mother, sister, friend
wings of birds these prayers I send
and the arms of the earth are open wide
recieving the blessings from inside
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
divine father, brother, soul
a mothers arms will keep you whole
divine father, brother, soul
a mothers arms will keep you whole
and the arms of the earth are open wide
recieving the blessings from inside
womb of the earth, miracle of birth
womb of the earth, miracle of birth

This is a life of Miracles we are all Living here.

Valge Päeva Võlu

Õndsad on need hetked, mil olen oma liikumise ainuke kapten. Mu laevaks on seekord ema auto. Simunasse oli põhjust viia ema juuksurisse, sealt edasi olen küll väikse missiooniga leida värvi-pann Väike-Maarjast, kuid palju teid viib sinna...

Võtan ühe, peatun lumevalguses ja selge taeva all. Puude tagant tõuseb Päike. No küll on see ikka imeline, valguse tulek maailma! On vaja vaadata pikalt hallust, et aduda selle kera suurt rolli meie maa-ilmades. Rõõm tõuseb laotusse!

On nii külm, et saapad naksuvad teel, justkui tahaks kinni jäätuda. -17 Celsiuse kraadi. Kristalliseerunud vesi katab kõike, särab ja sätendab.

Sõidan edasi ja peatun siis jälle. Arheoloogiamälestis, hiiemägi ja ohvripaik, püüab mu tähelepanu. Tajun soovi sinna astuda, sellesse pühasse ruumi. Kuigi kahekümnendatel hakati ses paigas paekivi kaevandama ja kunagisest kahest mäest on järgi jäänud vaid puhmasküngas, on iidset hõngu tajuda.
Uguri Mägi. 

Enese sees hakkab kõnelema "Kalevipojas" sõnatu:
"Aga ükskord algab aega,
mil kõik pirrud kahel otsal
lausa löövad lõkendama.
Lausa tuleleeki lõikab
käe siis kaljukammitsasta.
Küll siis Kalev jõuab koju
oma rahval õnne tooma,
Eesti põlve uueks looma!"

Need sõnad, nende jõud võbeleb mu sees ja meenutab midagi, mida ma teadlikult pole kunagi mäletanud. Võibolla vanad eestlased olid sarnased praegu tuntud oraaklite maiade, hopi indiaanlaste, tiibetlaste ja teiste tark-rahvastega? Võibolla on nende sõnade mõistmine mõistusega hoopis võimatu - niimoodi saab ainult tähtedesse kinni jääda, kuid tegelik informatsioon on suurem ja kõikehõlmavam. Kui vormitu tahetakse vormi panna, läheb ju ikka midagi kaotsi. Kasutades intuitsiooni ja universumi-taju, on vahest võimalik hakata silmama silmaga nähtamatut, näha nii, nagu justab Castaneda oma raamatuis. Näha illusioonidest läbi.


Sõidan julgelt teil, mida pole kunagi teadnud. Niimoodi käibki maadeavastamine. See piirkond, sõitmata teed, viivad mind rändama erinevais reaalsustes. Muinasmaailm ja imeilm on mu kodulaanteks taas. Hobuste kabjad kappavad teil, kuhu asfalt pole roomanud. On ju võimalik ka Eestimaal rännata suviti ringi sõpradega, hobuste turjadel. Kes küll teostaks neid häid mõtteid, mis su enda juurde tulevad? Eks vist ikka ainult ise!

Maailm, kui võimalikkuse mängulava.

Külapoes on ilus vanamees. Mu silmad peatuvad ta mustrilistel labakinnastel. Mõtlen enda omadele, mis on nädal otsa kudumata rännanud minuga mööda Eestimaad. Meenutus jätkamisele. See sama mees on kõrvalpoes ka, kui ostan viigimarju. Siis teatan talle kuis mulle ta kindad meeldivad - tema vastab, et need on ta ämma kootud. Ja seesama ämm oli ülevalla tuntud kokk omal ajal. Käis kodunduskoolis, talvel kudus selliseid imepäraseid mitmevärvilisi kindaid ja muul ajal siis tegi nii hästi süüa, et tema suurt koka-annet teati rohkem kui ühe-pere-ringis. No ja siis oli ta isa ka kindaid kududa osanud, sest kui ta noorena läti pool elas ja lätlastelt naha peale sai, õppis ta kodus ema käest hoopiski kuduma. Täpne poiss olevat olnud!
"Vanasti olid ikka ajad hoopis ilusamad! Aga näe, sina oled küll haruldane oma huviga!" sõnab ta selle pääle, kui mõtlen valjusti oma kinnaste jätkamisest...

See erinevate aegade sees rändamise taju jätkus minu jaoks selle vestlusega. Maailm on just selline, kuis ise luua. On müstikat ja muinasjuttu just nii palju olemas, kui endasse suudad mahutada.

Külm on hea hingamisele - lõõrid lähevad lahti ja tatt voolab välja.
See päev on püha.
Päike jääbki nii madalale ja tõusmisest saab pea kohe loojumine.
Põhjamaised võlud.
Korstendest tõuseb valkjaid suitsuhabemeid.

In The Middle Of It All

 

.

what to do when the heart is torn in between two continents?

when the sea doesn't replace the ocean

and being a guest doesn't replace being at home?

through the fields of choices

time will point the path to walk on

is there much to do about it

or is the decision already made?

in life and in love

you can count on the changes

they hold up the universe

they make the world turn around

are you my love?

am I your love?

do I see clear enough?

maybe I create illusions

oh, shall the path of truth

be rolled out for me

when the time to take my steps

is there to face




. 
Haapsalu
09.12.09

Where are you in your life?

I move on the Earth.
Now some people call me the "worldtraveller".
I guess it was my dream to become a one.

I went into the apartment where we used to live when we were children with Sander.
It is the place of the past. We left it behind when one summer on the countryside never ended and we didn't move back to the village, to our old home. We have been taking things along from there. But lots of them are left behind.

My room. My eyes see it through my little self, my little Marian. Room is so small, but we used to live there with Sander, only having a small floor-space for all the games we played. Big desk, father got it from his working place, old-russian-way-office-desk.
The whole table and floor was full of things, papers, books, toys. Today I had strength to go through it. Today I threw away boxes of old papers and clothes and things. There are more to deal with. But much is gone.
It is tiring. But it is rewarding.
I am amazed that this place is just existing, nobody taking care of it and when you turn on the water in the toilet, water starts to run through the flushing box... What a surprise!
Today I had courage to burn the candle we were saving for some special occasions. It was shaped as a bear in Santa-Claus suit.
I am burning my childhood. But it is not like denying it or killing it. It is more like looking it from aside. Observing. And realizing that some things are over. And there is much to learn from it - for example - to use my favorite stickers right away, not to put them aside until I am 23. This feeling of excitement around stickers is not the same.
Though, why not?
Yes,
there is something in me, still interested in beautiful small things, decorating my books and diaries with pretty pictures.

http://nekochan828.deviantart.com/

Oh, when I was there, I met with a wish to find my own home. I just want to move there and to have space for wool and hand-made stuff to work with. And for piano. And walls will be light and bright there.
In this place of childhood, it all felt so out of time. Small girl is big girl now. Now is the time I can live my dreams.
I do not need to have a childhood place in New Zealand to feel cool in my life.
Also, I do not need to live abroad to feel fulfilled in my life. There is more in me than I even know.
I am a creation of my mind, mostly. And as my mind is changing, I am changing. And as I am teaching silence to my mind, I might even find something else behind it. Cause when the mind is gone, I am not gone.
We will see.

Meanwhile,
dogs and cats are fed and snow is melting over here.
I am pleased that parents do take time to see the world too and hopefully they will come back with a new understanding in their eyes or hearts. I have time to drive on the misty gray roads of Estonia, listening to Vangelis. Conquest of Paradise. 1492.

What is the time? It is Now

Here I write down a question for You.

Siin on küsimus Sulle.

We both ask to give us some feedback about how all this "Semiluuto" has influenced You, 

Palume teil anda meile tagasisidet selle kohta kuis "Semiluuto" on Sinu jaoks olemas,

how you feel and think about that, 

mida Sa tunned ja mõtled selle kohta,

what is good and what is bad ~

mis on halb ja mis on hea ~

let it all out,

lase kõik välja,

long or short,

pikalt või lühikeselt,

black and white or colourful.

mustvalgelt või värviliselt.

~

This is how we are going to move on,

Sedamoodi me kasvame ja areneme,

sharing ideas, 

jagades ideesid,

sharing lives.

jagades elusid.

Speaking our Truth.

Rääkides oma Tõde.

Maybe something moves in you when you read and then you think that it is not worth mentioning...

but IT IS! You are the One. We all are connected and we can use tool of verbal and written communication to see the world from different angles, to share how we see.

semiluuto@gmail.com

 

Võibolla midagi liigutub Sinus kui loed... siis aga jätad selle mainimata, sest arvad, et see pole seda väärt... aga tead mis, SEE ON! 

Me oleme kõik ühendatud ja meie kasutada on kõneline ja kirjaline suhlemine,

et saaksime maailma näha erinevatest vaatekohtadest,

jagada seda, mida läbi eneste kogeme.

semiluuto@gmail.com

Täname. Olge lahked.

Thank you for your kindness.

And now you can continue with what else came up today... :)

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Some things change. Some things do not change.

There is happiness and sadness bound to those realizations. Over it all goes peace. It is observation, it is allowance.

Every morning and every night when I go to sleep I say: "All of Life comes to me with Ease and Joy and Glory!" 
This is called manifestation. I have done it for years now. As I look back to my life lived since I started that, I have to say, that it is truth. This is how my life is being created.
I am the Creator of my life. I am learning to listen to my Spirit, to listen to the Universe. It can take different forms and it can be called with different names. Some of those who are on this path, call themselves as yogis, some of them markames, shamans and so on.

I am from a place on Earth, where we do not have wide-known traditions. Estonians are the most irreligional people on the planet... (by Wikipedia) All that gives us a chance to go along with the energetical changes happening in those times of Now. Light is growing stronger and so are shadows. First things I heard about when I came to Estonia were this economical crisis (called MASU over here - new word is even being created!) and loss of jobs and salaries.
My first reaction was that I want to go back there where I just came from - West coast of Canada, beautiful British Columbia, Vancouver Island.

Then I was reminded to be where I am. This is a doorway to inner peace. I went along with my brother who has created a space to live, which is wood-heated and in an old house, made out of wood. This is a yin-apartment, not so much light from outside. But there is not much light out there anyways. Sky is gray and water is falling down in different forms.

Just here, in this sweet and warm cave I am taking my time to rest and give time to the body to adjust with the different time and environment, temperature and food.
The training I used to take part for 3 years, has evolved and moved on. It is called BodyMindSchool (KehaMeeleKool) Gladly there is space for me to go and tap myself in, to wake up some skills which are there in my body-memory and also to go and understand it from another level. This year of being a traveller has taught me something about the World. I am understood there too. Now it is time to move on and create something new. It is all coming.

Marian. There is the Light. Tartu. Estonia.

Friends of my brother and friends of mine are joining together, those who's hearts have directions in common. It is celebration of Life. It is a gift for me here to see how the community awakes and grows and World really comes together.

Sander. Just come along. Tartu. In the Kitchen.

I am supported by various people and their actions around the world. I am sure to find the right information on the right time. Be free to share your insights and inspirations. I see that it is happening every day - that people realize that the answers cannot be found from outside, they are there, inside.
So decide to get to know yourself better and your issues will be solved, step by step.

You are the change you want to see in the world. There is nowhere to push it forward. Look through the illusions and choose what is right for the Heart, not for the mind. Because mind created world is degrading and falling apart. New children are being born who know what they are doing here, they are well connected with their Spirits and as they grow, they are going to build up the societies where the voice of the mind is used wisely, controlled, not controlling.

For those who are somewhere in the middle of this change, things can be challenging and confusing at certain times. It is a lesson to go through, it is there for us to wake up and let go of the things we are trained to think and have and worry about.
It is all about trust and simplicity and freedom.

Freedom to eat well, to live in balance, to have good friends around and to do what is fulfilling and motivating.

So, if you happen to have ask time next time, take a look at your wrist (and jewelery there) and see that the Time Is Now ~

~alleaa~

WorldComesTogether

World COMES together ~ One way or another ~ World COMES together

IT
IS

~