Sander and I just went through a course where we learned to work as Aura Mediators.
It feels like real life.
It feels in peace.
It feels like doing something that I have always wanted to do.
It feels whole.
Spirit integrates the body.
It is the New World.
It is Life.
Showing posts with label The World Revolution. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The World Revolution. Show all posts
21 August 2010
08 June 2010
Mis on ime
| Ime pole mitte õhus lendamine või veepeal käimine, vaid maa peal kõndimine. — Hiina vanasõna |
01 June 2010
29 May 2010
Studying Chaos and Fractals
"Researchers discovered a simple set of three equations that graphed a fern. This started a new idea - perhaps DNA encodes not exactly where the leaves grow, but a formula that controls their distribution. DNA, even though it holds an amazing amount of data, could not hold all of the data necessary to determine where every cell of the human body goes. However, by using fractal formulas to control how the blood vessels branch out and the nerve fibers get created, DNA has more than enough information. It has even been speculated that the brain itself might be organized somehow according to the laws of chaos."
Read more: http://www.imho.com/grae/chaos/chaos.html
http://www.stsci.edu/~lbradley/seminar/I am getting inspired by thinking of how this world works - maybe there are hidden fractals everywhere! They are there just to discover!
So, a fractal has come to mean any image that displays the attribute of self-similarity.
One of the most simple one is Mandelbrot fractal:
Again, check out the pages listed above for more information!
I am learning for the exam of "Introduction to Mathematical Modelling" and for that I am getting into all those interesting fields of science and world - fractals, chaos, self-organisation and sync!
I even ordered a book,Steven Strogatz "Sync. The emerging science of spontaneous order",
after writing an essay about natural rhythms and their syncronicity and about female moon cycle - it works like magic!
So yes,
even though I am in science now, I see the edges of it and the places where it starts to reach the magic, patterns and beauty!
Just go into the thing you are dealing with and start seeing what is it made out of - you might find something fascinating!
Meanwhile,
enjoy the smell of the spring, at least here in the northern hemisphere, around 60 degrees of latitude!
11 May 2010
When You Love
When I realize that I love myself,
nothing in the world can put me down anymore.
And this is how I know now that even if there are so many things to do for the school and I don't know how it will all end up happening, I will be just fine - just being sure of that I love myself. No matter what happens.
06 April 2010
"Pollyanna" Eleanor H. Porter
Täna läksin mingi imeliku sunni ajel TTÜ raamatukokku, kõige kõrgemale korrusele ning kõndisin otsejoones selle ühe raamaturiiuli poole, vaadates otsiva pilguga ringi. Üks hääl mus ütles, et ma ei peaks ühtki juturaamatut laenutama, sest mul on vaja hoopis referaati kirjutada. Aga siis ma ikkagi võtsin riiulist välja ühe mittemidagiütlevate pruunide kaantega raamatu ning sisse vaadates nägin, et värvilisel peidetud esilehel on kirjas "Pollyanna". Teadsin kohe, et olen seda raamatut lugenud, kuid ei mäletanud täpselt, millest seal juttu oli. Ometi võtsin raamatu endaga kaasa. Haarasin hooga pihku ka ühe teise põnevana tunduva raamatu ning suundusin laenutama. Selgus, et seda teist raamatut ei saanudki ma võtta, sest talle oli punane ring peale kleebitud - see tähendab "kohal kasutamiseks". "Hea küll siis, võtan Pollyanna."
Juba trollis kesklinna poole sõites hakkasin seda raamatut lugema ning taipasin, kuidas see meenutab mu lapsepõlve muinasreaalsust, milles elasin ning mis siiamaani on minu sees erinevatel hetkedel hingamas.
Praegu on öö, uue päeva algus nii lähedal. See raamat saigi läbi loetud.
Minus on lõputut rõõmu ja näol kuivanud pisaraid.
See raamat on maagiline. Poole lugemise ajal helistas mulle Simona ning soovis minuga koos olemist, õdusat ja kerget jagamist, oma nõrkadel hetkedel toetuse leidmist. Mina sain talle rääkida sellest raamatust, mida loen... ja muustki.. ning sõbral hakkas parem. Ta ütles, et olen imeline, et niimoodi suudan teha.
Nüüd ma tean, miks niimoodi on.
See on sellepärast,
et Pollyanna raamat meenutas mulle,
et maailmas on nii palju asju, mille üle rõõmu tunda!
See on see, mille pärast otsustasin naeratama ja naerma hakata, teadlikult ja tugevalt - juba siis kui olin alles õige noor!
See salajane teadmine on minus elanud oma elu, mind muudkui edasi juhtides ja inimesi ning olukordi mu teele juhatades.
Just sellepärast olen siia praegu kirjutamas,
oma jõudu kokku kogumas,
julgedes olla aus
oma jagamises ja rõõmus.
Seljataha vaadates on paremini näha need teeviidad, mis on juhatanud mind siia, kus ma praegu olen. Uskumatult imeline on saada vanemaks ning koguda seda pilku, mis näeb ning ühendusi loob! Selgemaks saab see, mis on mu elu, selle kulgemise suund, vool ja olemus.
Jagamine ja rõõm, ausus ja ühendus.
Olen üdini õnnelik,
et saan jagada seda hetke
tippides musti tähti valgele ekraanile.
Mu süda pakatab sellest tundest.
Ja tean,
et jõuan selle referaadigi tehtud.
Sest minu sees elab rõõm.
Seesama, mille tundsin ära, kui Nõo ühikas toakaaslastega masenduse pärast koolist puududes hakkasin sisemiselt naerma kui nutsime oma kurva saatuse üle - sain aru, et tegelikult olen õnnelik. See teadmine tuli minu sisse kui kevadõhk, pannes unustama selle, mille olin välja mõelnud enese pimeduses.
Küll on ikka kõik hästi paigas siin elus!
Poisid ja tüdrukud, mehed ja naised - lugege seda raamatut, kui on tunnet ja julgust. See võib muuta teie elu!
"Pollyanna" Eleanor H. Porter
Kes inglise keelt mõikab, saab lugeda: http://www.literaturepage.com/read/pollyanna.html
Jah, head sõbrad, küll on hea, et ma saan kõndida ja kohtuda teiega sel teel!
~*~
I must say it out in English too - I have found the one book I read in my childhood - "Pollyanna" by Eleanor H. Porter - which helped me to find what I had to find, what has lead me to you, to the adventures, to the writing and to the joy of living.
Today I took this book from a library - just by an "accident". And now, when I just finished reading it, I am so touched - in tears and in happyness!
Maybe you want to stop writing essays, doing homework, cleaning home, thinking about the worries and work - and remind yourself - how you want to live and how there is so much joy in this life - it is just there for you to see it!
You can even read this book in the internet!:
http://www.literaturepage.com/read/pollyanna.html
Friends, you have brought me so much joy - and you do bring it now too! I have you all in my heart and until I can walk, we will meet on the road!
02 February 2010
"Peame vabanema kinnismõtetest ja hirmudest"
Eesti Vabariigi Presidendi - Toomas Hendrik Ilvese kõne - 02.02.2010.
"Peame vabanema kinnismõtetest ja hirmudest," - nii hea on kuulda seda meie riigi juhilt. Riik on tõesti nagu inimene oma mõtlemisega - kui heietab minevikuvägitegudest, unustab praeguses elada ning ei julge ilusat olevikku märgatagi ja luua.
Newtoni ja Einsteini avastuste ja arusaamiste märkamine on päevakajaline ka mulle, just praegu.
Paar esimest lehekülge modelleerimise loengus soovitatud raamatus "Universum Pähklikoores" panid mind soovima seda edasi lugeda ja vahest ka enda raamaturiiulist teinekordki üles leida.
Lektüür laieneb tõepoolest.
Paar kilo kirjandust tassisin koju täna juurde TTÜ raamatukogust.
"Peame vabanema kinnismõtetest ja hirmudest," - nii hea on kuulda seda meie riigi juhilt. Riik on tõesti nagu inimene oma mõtlemisega - kui heietab minevikuvägitegudest, unustab praeguses elada ning ei julge ilusat olevikku märgatagi ja luua.
Newtoni ja Einsteini avastuste ja arusaamiste märkamine on päevakajaline ka mulle, just praegu.
Paar esimest lehekülge modelleerimise loengus soovitatud raamatus "Universum Pähklikoores" panid mind soovima seda edasi lugeda ja vahest ka enda raamaturiiulist teinekordki üles leida.
Lektüür laieneb tõepoolest.
Paar kilo kirjandust tassisin koju täna juurde TTÜ raamatukogust.
13 September 2009
How do you grow?
On a sunny Saturday morning I was walking with Elizabeth and Catherine towards Anarchist Bookfair when we saw that Music Conservatory was having open doors day. We stepped in. Next I realized that I have signed myself up for a mini-lesson. Voice lesson.
There I was, opening myself and my voice, releasing fear and listening to Her, who is aware of energywork and that's why her explanations made so much sense for me. Breathing and reaching the sky trough the earth - this is how voice goes when it has strength. 15 minutes passed by so fast, but I learned a lot.
Then I was in saxophone lesson too, without my own instrument. But the teacher was reminding me how important is to be relaxed and have a straight and normal position, not to be twisted or feeling pain here or there... It all starts with simple things - noticing your body and your breathing.
I was lucky to meet with those teachers. There is so many ways to learn and teach. I have seen different sides of it and life shows eventually what is healthy and what is sustainable.
My heart felt just so happy while being around music again.
When I return here, I might go and volunteer in music therapy, or play piano in elders care homes. To bring light and joy to them.
What about Anarchist Bookfair - people wear a lot of black. They are sometimes dirtier than "normal" people. They also have thoughts about how to rebel and act against something. It can be freedom and it can be a trap. I got tired. Also I got a book about plants in here - about their edibility and medicinal properties.
As long as there is groundedness, it is possible to go trough the shadows, carrying light.
I saw a native woman who is really fierce about 2010 Oympics here. People are loosing jobs because of that, people are losing land... and all this activity around olympic games opens the old wounds too... that First Nation's have lost their land...and white people take it for granted, take the resources and fine art of the Natives...and use it to show it all from a fancy and glimmery side. It is very controversial. Homeless people from Vancouver are sent to Vancouver Island..., to Victoria, just because Vancouver has to look "nice". It makes me wonder.... what is real and what are we showed is real.
When I see pictures and commercial about Olympics, it all seems so nice. Even too nice. Cause I see something else too. People behind that. And all this money comes from somewhere. Somebody is being exploited. Maybe the Land. Mother Earth. And those people who want to live with the Nature.
Natives have lost lots of their pride and vision and growth. Alcohol kills their dreams. They become numb. And this is how they can be ruled. This is how we can be ruled. Almost everybody drinks alcohol...cause it is not as bad as drugs... and smoking. It is normal to drink alcohol!
I doubt about that.
Alcohol makes you forget.
Forget who you are.
Forget what are you dreaming of.
Forget why are you living.
Forget what you love and thrive for.
Forget your growth.
You loose your vision.
Wood in you is your growth, your purpose. And it is your vision. Liver is connected with the element Wood. Alcohol affects liver. People wear glasses cause they have lost sight. There is something they cannot see. They do not express themselves through creativity.
When was the last time you created something?
Imagine yourself as a tree. Seed knows already what kind of tree will come out of it. Branches reach toward Light, to the Sky. Roots reach into the Earth. Tree wants to be strong in the winds. Tree wants to grow, flower and fruit and then let it all go... and start all over again.
Find your growth and direction.
How do you see yourself when you are old?
What will be around you when 10 years have passed by?
Just hug a tree and listen to the water in the tree.
Listen to the growth.
Listen to the silence.
Thank YOU for listening.
There I was, opening myself and my voice, releasing fear and listening to Her, who is aware of energywork and that's why her explanations made so much sense for me. Breathing and reaching the sky trough the earth - this is how voice goes when it has strength. 15 minutes passed by so fast, but I learned a lot.
Then I was in saxophone lesson too, without my own instrument. But the teacher was reminding me how important is to be relaxed and have a straight and normal position, not to be twisted or feeling pain here or there... It all starts with simple things - noticing your body and your breathing.
I was lucky to meet with those teachers. There is so many ways to learn and teach. I have seen different sides of it and life shows eventually what is healthy and what is sustainable.
My heart felt just so happy while being around music again.
When I return here, I might go and volunteer in music therapy, or play piano in elders care homes. To bring light and joy to them.
What about Anarchist Bookfair - people wear a lot of black. They are sometimes dirtier than "normal" people. They also have thoughts about how to rebel and act against something. It can be freedom and it can be a trap. I got tired. Also I got a book about plants in here - about their edibility and medicinal properties.
As long as there is groundedness, it is possible to go trough the shadows, carrying light.
I saw a native woman who is really fierce about 2010 Oympics here. People are loosing jobs because of that, people are losing land... and all this activity around olympic games opens the old wounds too... that First Nation's have lost their land...and white people take it for granted, take the resources and fine art of the Natives...and use it to show it all from a fancy and glimmery side. It is very controversial. Homeless people from Vancouver are sent to Vancouver Island..., to Victoria, just because Vancouver has to look "nice". It makes me wonder.... what is real and what are we showed is real.
When I see pictures and commercial about Olympics, it all seems so nice. Even too nice. Cause I see something else too. People behind that. And all this money comes from somewhere. Somebody is being exploited. Maybe the Land. Mother Earth. And those people who want to live with the Nature.
Natives have lost lots of their pride and vision and growth. Alcohol kills their dreams. They become numb. And this is how they can be ruled. This is how we can be ruled. Almost everybody drinks alcohol...cause it is not as bad as drugs... and smoking. It is normal to drink alcohol!
I doubt about that.
Alcohol makes you forget.
Forget who you are.
Forget what are you dreaming of.
Forget why are you living.
Forget what you love and thrive for.
Forget your growth.
You loose your vision.
Wood in you is your growth, your purpose. And it is your vision. Liver is connected with the element Wood. Alcohol affects liver. People wear glasses cause they have lost sight. There is something they cannot see. They do not express themselves through creativity.
When was the last time you created something?
Imagine yourself as a tree. Seed knows already what kind of tree will come out of it. Branches reach toward Light, to the Sky. Roots reach into the Earth. Tree wants to be strong in the winds. Tree wants to grow, flower and fruit and then let it all go... and start all over again.
Find your growth and direction.
How do you see yourself when you are old?
What will be around you when 10 years have passed by?
Just hug a tree and listen to the water in the tree.
Listen to the growth.
Listen to the silence.
Thank YOU for listening.
20 June 2009
Be at home wherever you are and you will find home where you are
Gift of this day is solitude.
I woke up hearing how Victor left, telling to the libanese painters who came to make windows white that a girl is sleeping in the house. This girl opened her eyes, coming back to this realm we call reality. To the house where she has a permission to be, to keep her stuff, to move things, to clean, to breath, to make fire.
She made 5 Tibetian exercises. This is the first week when 21 repetitions are made.
Light and easy. Clouds in the sky. Livingroom is such a state now that it feels home to be there.
The girl is learning that a touch can change so much - it is all about moving and blowing life into the things, giving them care and love and so they wake up and start to shine. They find their reason to be and they are so grateful in their places. And if listened, they tell where they want to be, where is their best place to serve this room.
Wet piece of fabric is a tool to clean surfaces. Small movements, reaching the bottom of the surfaces, releasing dust and dirt. This is the time to listen. To see life from aside.
Internet is near in those days, still, I haven't write here so much. I have been living. I have lots to tell, but for some reason it is inside, growing bigger and getting smaller. Things come and go. I forget some. I remember some. I hope that when I am a grandmother, I remember small stories to tell to my children and grandchildren. And friends, just take time to listen and ask, if I am around. And even if I do not talk, all what has happened with me, has shaped me, has released things which had to go. The river is getting cleaner in its flow.
Life is giving me beautiful experiences and pictures around.
I found oysters from the beach of Hornby (an island more north from Victoria), we ate octopus who was caught by a bald eagle, I kayaked alone amongst the waves of pacific ocean (from a bay to a bay though :), I drove car back from this island while the boys were sleeping - I do remember how to keep a car on the road, even on highway now. They said that Estonian licence works here as well. Skills do work for sure.
And the ocean - it was so warm there that I could stay in it as long as I wanted to... Here in Victoria is cold. It is refreshing.
So, you can find paradise islands around here where ocean gives you food, you can swim and go to the forests... and even being naked is allowed somewhere.
Oh, and on this island there is a Free Shop where you can go and take what you like. And you can bring things there as you please. Clothes, books and all kinds of stuff. No stress. I feel this is the way things should be - free! Sharing.
If there is no money accompanied, people are more kind and giving - if they get food for free they feel like sharing with the others for free as well. Same with living and things. And I believe this is how it can be. And even if you buy things, you can have this freedom to share and give for free. Cause all what you give, will come back to you.
All the others from this house went to a festival in mainland, near Vancouver. It is party there for them. Victor stayed to help to clean the house and to work with his projects. Today he is out.
Precious time alone.
Music with me.
Being here is so different from all the other moments during my trip. I have been in various places, houses, cities... and I have always wanted to go on after a certain amount of time. As I went somewhere I knew that I will leave this place soon.
Here.
Heh, I am not feeling or thinking about going somewhere else. I feel like at home here. I gather my strenght, I move things and I dance this dance of life. I straighten my back and look into the eyes of the presence. Movement is in smaller scale. I am observing. I am awake and I am ready to find a place for my body to feel good.
School. It is here. Chinese Medicine School again. This time it can be full time studying with ~500 hours of clinical practise. If I start now I can be ready for 2012. There are 4 schools here in Victoria and I have looked around, observing and feeling them, watching signs and small things.
My mind tries to confuse me, but my soul has decided already. This school is called Pacific Rim College. I like that the word "pacific" is inside this school. Space there is the most beautiful. It is in the centre of the town, white rooms and high ceilings, wooden floors and walls made of stone... People are kind and school is flexible. It is the newest around, but this doesn't scare me, I like it instead. Cause it is fresh and opened to the possibilies, ready to meet with the wishes of students.
Visas and permissions - I am searching my way through this world. I am doing my best to feel that all is possible. Time will tell. I believe.
Earth Angels are gathering.
There are at least 4 of them in this household. And we can share the vision, our thoughts and creation - it is similar and it is so good to feel the support in those matters which can sound as something totally crazy to somebody else. But this is what is happening on the Earth now.
That soon we have to be ready to survive with the nature, to be able to grow our own food, to live in communities, to share and love. Now is the time to look around, to learn and meet with people, to start forming the communties and finding places where to do it. It is all coming together. It is already 2009, half of it is through soon. Travelling might not be possible when we run out of gas soon..., people in the cities can be in hard situations cause they depend on the system so much. But the system is collapsing.
We are so use to it all what we see around in the society and it is hard to see it from aside. To see it differently. But there are another views.
Some information is not shared, instead we are slaves of other information which is manipulating with us, is pushing us towards more consumption, feeling insecure, being afraid, being stranger with neighbours, being stressed and sick, feeling lack, feeling jelous.
Our spirits are never caught with all that. We can be free inside. And this freedoms flows out from us when we live in it. When we live in Peace.
I know inside myself that another world, New Earth, is coming. Big changes. And my generation is here to be warriors. We break down things, we rebel and we are challenged. Our children can start planting the seeds. We are here to give support them.
*
I love getting older. Time on the Earth is valuable and I am learning a lot here. 23 years on this planet. It is getting better and better.
There are smells to smell. I like how The Oak Tree smells a bit like moss. And how some flowers do not have any smell at all.
Indian plums taste so purple that my mouth changes its colour.
Salmonberries are like raspberries, but their colour is like salmon. And they are sweet.
There are huckleberries, like Huckleberry Finn. But I haven't tasted them yet cause they are not ready.
Spinach is growing in the backyard and when I go by I eat this delicious green plant.
Fields of gold - I walked on the fields of gold last evening when the sun was setting... Ocean was strong and windy, white tips on the waves. Gloves and a hat gave me enough warmth.
Solstice is coming.
Chimney in this house woke up, so the fire is here with me.
Nights are short. It is the time of the light.
This is how it was yesterday. Not my picture. But from here.
***
Long writing.
So, take it easy. Take your time.
And you have already taken :)
I woke up hearing how Victor left, telling to the libanese painters who came to make windows white that a girl is sleeping in the house. This girl opened her eyes, coming back to this realm we call reality. To the house where she has a permission to be, to keep her stuff, to move things, to clean, to breath, to make fire.
She made 5 Tibetian exercises. This is the first week when 21 repetitions are made.
Light and easy. Clouds in the sky. Livingroom is such a state now that it feels home to be there.
The girl is learning that a touch can change so much - it is all about moving and blowing life into the things, giving them care and love and so they wake up and start to shine. They find their reason to be and they are so grateful in their places. And if listened, they tell where they want to be, where is their best place to serve this room.
Wet piece of fabric is a tool to clean surfaces. Small movements, reaching the bottom of the surfaces, releasing dust and dirt. This is the time to listen. To see life from aside.
Internet is near in those days, still, I haven't write here so much. I have been living. I have lots to tell, but for some reason it is inside, growing bigger and getting smaller. Things come and go. I forget some. I remember some. I hope that when I am a grandmother, I remember small stories to tell to my children and grandchildren. And friends, just take time to listen and ask, if I am around. And even if I do not talk, all what has happened with me, has shaped me, has released things which had to go. The river is getting cleaner in its flow.
Moments of reflection, moments of looking back, looking forward as being here and now.
Tribune bay in Hornby. This is where I slept one night, kayaked and watched the tides. Low tide in this picture.
Tribune bay in Hornby. This is where I slept one night, kayaked and watched the tides. Low tide in this picture.
Life is giving me beautiful experiences and pictures around.
I found oysters from the beach of Hornby (an island more north from Victoria), we ate octopus who was caught by a bald eagle, I kayaked alone amongst the waves of pacific ocean (from a bay to a bay though :), I drove car back from this island while the boys were sleeping - I do remember how to keep a car on the road, even on highway now. They said that Estonian licence works here as well. Skills do work for sure.
And the ocean - it was so warm there that I could stay in it as long as I wanted to... Here in Victoria is cold. It is refreshing.
So, you can find paradise islands around here where ocean gives you food, you can swim and go to the forests... and even being naked is allowed somewhere.
Oh, and on this island there is a Free Shop where you can go and take what you like. And you can bring things there as you please. Clothes, books and all kinds of stuff. No stress. I feel this is the way things should be - free! Sharing.
If there is no money accompanied, people are more kind and giving - if they get food for free they feel like sharing with the others for free as well. Same with living and things. And I believe this is how it can be. And even if you buy things, you can have this freedom to share and give for free. Cause all what you give, will come back to you.
All the others from this house went to a festival in mainland, near Vancouver. It is party there for them. Victor stayed to help to clean the house and to work with his projects. Today he is out.
Precious time alone.
Music with me.
Being here is so different from all the other moments during my trip. I have been in various places, houses, cities... and I have always wanted to go on after a certain amount of time. As I went somewhere I knew that I will leave this place soon.
Here.
Heh, I am not feeling or thinking about going somewhere else. I feel like at home here. I gather my strenght, I move things and I dance this dance of life. I straighten my back and look into the eyes of the presence. Movement is in smaller scale. I am observing. I am awake and I am ready to find a place for my body to feel good.
School. It is here. Chinese Medicine School again. This time it can be full time studying with ~500 hours of clinical practise. If I start now I can be ready for 2012. There are 4 schools here in Victoria and I have looked around, observing and feeling them, watching signs and small things.
My mind tries to confuse me, but my soul has decided already. This school is called Pacific Rim College. I like that the word "pacific" is inside this school. Space there is the most beautiful. It is in the centre of the town, white rooms and high ceilings, wooden floors and walls made of stone... People are kind and school is flexible. It is the newest around, but this doesn't scare me, I like it instead. Cause it is fresh and opened to the possibilies, ready to meet with the wishes of students.
Visas and permissions - I am searching my way through this world. I am doing my best to feel that all is possible. Time will tell. I believe.
Earth Angels are gathering.
There are at least 4 of them in this household. And we can share the vision, our thoughts and creation - it is similar and it is so good to feel the support in those matters which can sound as something totally crazy to somebody else. But this is what is happening on the Earth now.
That soon we have to be ready to survive with the nature, to be able to grow our own food, to live in communities, to share and love. Now is the time to look around, to learn and meet with people, to start forming the communties and finding places where to do it. It is all coming together. It is already 2009, half of it is through soon. Travelling might not be possible when we run out of gas soon..., people in the cities can be in hard situations cause they depend on the system so much. But the system is collapsing.
We are so use to it all what we see around in the society and it is hard to see it from aside. To see it differently. But there are another views.
Some information is not shared, instead we are slaves of other information which is manipulating with us, is pushing us towards more consumption, feeling insecure, being afraid, being stranger with neighbours, being stressed and sick, feeling lack, feeling jelous.
Our spirits are never caught with all that. We can be free inside. And this freedoms flows out from us when we live in it. When we live in Peace.
I know inside myself that another world, New Earth, is coming. Big changes. And my generation is here to be warriors. We break down things, we rebel and we are challenged. Our children can start planting the seeds. We are here to give support them.
*
I love getting older. Time on the Earth is valuable and I am learning a lot here. 23 years on this planet. It is getting better and better.
There are smells to smell. I like how The Oak Tree smells a bit like moss. And how some flowers do not have any smell at all.
Indian plums taste so purple that my mouth changes its colour.
Salmonberries are like raspberries, but their colour is like salmon. And they are sweet.
There are huckleberries, like Huckleberry Finn. But I haven't tasted them yet cause they are not ready.
Spinach is growing in the backyard and when I go by I eat this delicious green plant.
Fields of gold - I walked on the fields of gold last evening when the sun was setting... Ocean was strong and windy, white tips on the waves. Gloves and a hat gave me enough warmth.
Solstice is coming.
Chimney in this house woke up, so the fire is here with me.
Nights are short. It is the time of the light.
This is how it was yesterday. Not my picture. But from here.
***
Long writing.
So, take it easy. Take your time.
And you have already taken :)
04 June 2009
Roosad kastani6ied on langenud
\see paistab, kui vaadata yle ookeani - USA valged tipud. This is what I see over the ocean - white mountaintops of USA\Lippan m2est yles paljajalu - seal t2navanurgal on Tamm ja tema all on rohi muruks niitmata, on hein, on kui oder lehvimas tuules. Seal on selline ruum, mis on taevaga seoses, maa tugevus toetamas.
Tyler on selle koha sisse t88tanud juba ja nyyd ma saan minna ja hommikul istuda, harjutusi teha. Ja 6htul saab ka minna. Selle maja inimesed j2tsid selle heameelega niimoodi. Kyll on 6nn.
Selle aja sees, mis olen siin saarel, Victoria linnas olnud, on kastani6ied puudelt kadumas, nende kuninglikud kroonid langetavad oma pead. Ja siin kohtusin roosade k6rgeausustega, nii malbed ja kerged.
P2evad on saanud nii soojaks, et tuleb kiiresti kimada, siis tuul jahutab.
Olen majas, kus liigub ringi palju inimesi ja kus on ka korralikku kaost - see t2hendab, et saan n6usid pesta ja p6randaid pyhkida ja pean ytlema, et see meeldib mulle! Leian korrakergust ja armastust ses t88s. Ja tunnen, kuidas see inimestele m6jub. Siia majja sattus nyyd ka rohkem naisi, mis toob laulmist ja tantsu ja lehvimist ringi. Inimeste n2od saavad naerule.
Saan ka minna teisale, istutada tomatitaimi ja teha syya ilusas katuseaknaga k88gis.
Kulgemise vabadus.
Ja tundub, et olen pidanud siia tulema, et kohtuda Maa-Inglitega, eriti haldjatega, keda on heasti m2rgata. Selles majas on neid isegi 2 praegu, ja neid on ymber veelgi! Yleilmaline kogunemine on toimumas, tajun.
Praegu on ajad, mil tuleb 6ppida, kuidas elada koos Emakese Maaga. Maailmas juhtub paljut, systeemid rappuvad oma alustaladel.. See, mis juhtub, on meie eneste luua ja 2ra tunda. Intuitsiooni tuleb kuulata. V6ib juhtuda, et yhel hetkel tuleb osata elada looduse keskel, j22da ellu sellega, mis olemas on, olla s6ltumatu systeemist, mis sind kontrollida ja suunata soovib.
Siin olen elanud oma synnip2evast alates peaaegu yldse raha kulutamata. Sest siin on palju toitu yle - noored teavad, kust seda leida. Olen inimestega, kes lubavad mul oma katuse all magada.. Mida veel on eluks vaja? Leidsin riideid, mida keegi enam ei vajanud... Oh, ringlus ja jagamine!
Ometi kasutame seda yhiskonda, kasutame, et on poed ja 2rid, kel asju yle j22b.
Ja samas on majade aedades sirgumas rohelised lehed, mida syya, tomatid, mida sygisel noppida, peedid ja kartulid - loomulik suund on omaenese toidu kasvatamisele. Ja mina t6den r66muga, et meie pere on seda teinud mu lapsep6lveski - see on omane ja lihtne mulle. Seest t6usevad teadmised v2lja, saan aidata ja kaasa lyya.
Jah, maailm muutubki.
Kuulan maad ja tuuli, astun samme l2hemale indiaanlastele, sinna mu hing mind juhatab praegu. See on aeglane tee, see muudab elu. Ma astun.
Suled on juhatuseks.
Alternatiivelu.
Praegu on teadmiste kogumine, et oskaks yhel hetkel eladagi iseseisvalt, s6brad toetuseks. Valgust88lised yhinevad ja loovad valgusv6rku yle maa. Olen siin. Selle sees.
Eestimaa juured on vajalikud, tammede toetus ja iidsed tarkused. Ei ole ma niisama valinud seda haldjakeelt k6nelemiseks ja v2ikese rahva toetust seljataha. Imeline synkroonsus on elu.
Iga samm, mis astume, on nii vajalik. Meie m6tted loovad maailma m6tteid ja liikumissuundi.
Vali kergus ja helgus,
hoolitse oma keha eest,
joo puhast vett, armastusega.
R22gi puude ja lilledega, silita me Emakest Maad.
Ja inimesed, kellega kohtud, kuula neid siiralt. Unusta oma arvamused ja piirid - luba neil olla, armasta neid lihtsalt - maailm vajab yhinemist, myyride lagunemist, teineteisele k2e ulatamist!
***
Life has leaded me here, where I wake up in the morning, go and sit under the oak tree, just up on this Fernwood street. Those people there have left the grass tall and it gives this space to be, to do exercises, to listen. To touch.
Lightwork is happening - lightworkers are gathering. I meet with fairies and elves and wise ones.. We are here to support each other, to learn how to live with the Mother Earth. And then in one point we might need to go to the forest and to survive, to feed ourselves, to grow our own food. And to know how to build and how to cooperate with the Earth.
It is a challenge.
I make my prayers to meet with Elders and Medicine People, to learn. To be humble and in service.
Love your neighbours,
say hello to people you have never greeted!
Give up your fears, just find out who you are,
try and play!
I am cleaning the kitchen and everything - I feel inspired - it brings light and ease into peoples mind, when there is less trash around... And working is a part of the game. Indeed.
Lets support each other on those journeys!
Light and Love,
sincerety and true words,
Please!
Thank You!
07 May 2009
The World Revolution
What is happening with the world, with the People!?
I can see that people here are so afraid. They pass by in their fast cars and they even do not want to see us, because we might be dangerous.
They are ashamed that there are still some crazy kids who think that they do not have to buy a car, buy a ride, buy a life...
They do not dare to look into my eyes.
I look.
I see.
I cry.
People are not allowed to walk everywhere on the Earth anymore. Highways are so dangerous.
Fast. Faster. Faster.
And you cannot go over the river because there is only highway going over.
We saw signs which forbidded us to walk next to the roads.
We had to find places where we could stand,
and watch as cars passed by,
usually one person driving,
staring without seeing us, without having any emotions.
What is happening?
Where are you all rushing?
Don't you have children who want to see the world?
Don't you have any friends who hitchike?
Haven't you ever be in a situation where there is no other option than just standing next to the road and hoping that somebody will take you somewhere,
anywhere! Just out from this abandoned place...
So,
we were on our way to Quebec city from Montreal, but we only managed to get less than half way there. 5 cars. We ended up in a really kitch place called Madrid. Surreal. Plastic dinosaurs. Smashed cars. Cars with huge tyres. Flags on top of the hotel-restaurant. TV full of monster car shows. Shows.
This is all a big show-off.
But one dinosaur had broken his neck.
It felt little dead.
Is this American dream or what?
Nobody went to Quebec this evening.
We decided to go to a bush. There was a one.
Not much people passing by on this rue Moulin Rouge there.
We fried some bread that we got from the gas station and covered it with superoily peanut butter.
You know, those are the things people can eat when there is not much else to eat. You get your energy at least.
And the Sun went down and we crawled into our sweet tent!
Nature!
Mother Earth!
We realised that out there you are always protected. There is always space! There is peace!
Highway continued roaring,
but the frogs sang it over - they have the spring going on!
Birds.
Small fresh leaves putting their noses out from the Earth.
Yeah,
this was our first night to camp outside in Canada.
It is so easy to start to worry,
but if you have a chance to be out in the Wild, then you are safe! Just have a sleeping bag and a tent and it is all good.
They are saying nowadays that you shouldn't sleep in a bush like this,
but I have to tell you what the Earth whispered to me:
"Thank You guys for being here with me! Nobody has ever slept under my spring birches, here in this "pointless" bush, they say it is not a nice forest... Thank You Children, I am taking care of you always! I miss the touch of the Human-Being. They are in the cars and wearing gloves in these days. I want to feel them! Trust me, touch me, be with me!"
Go to sleep with the Sun and wake up with the Sun - this is the natural cycle, supportive!
And there were horses in my dream, I was riding again! This seems like a faraway dream already for now...
The sky was crying in the next morning,
we went back to the crazy Madrid place,
stayed inside and asked people if the happen to go to Quebec.....hmm... anywhere? Montreal?
For me it felt like it is time to go back to Montreal cause I felt my passport might be there.
So,
in the rain there we were standing,
and showing our wet sign. Montreal was there. White pickup car really stopped and we jumped in! Huh! This guy was talking french and he had 5 children. I guess that was the reason why he stopped :)
Back in the city!
My passport there! 37th floor in a huge business building was our destination. We were waiting in a room 13 for the ambassador. What a view! This is business! And we were just sleeping in the nature and now we are there, in between fancy suits and ties. Contrasts. This is our light~work~way.
This hitchiking trip made us understood that this is Lightwork - that we are standing next to the road and causing some thoughts and feelingsto arise in peoples mind - shame, blame, anger, laughter, memories.. all what comes. And we are offering them a chance to change their everyday patterns, allow something new to come in, something strange, something unexperienced!
Take it,
take us,
the children of the Light.
It is hard for us as well.
But this is what I am here for. I want my children to have the possibility to go to the world without working their asses off and waiting until they have paid off all the loans and children raised up and death in their minds... I want my children to have land to sleep on, dream on and walk on.
Please people!
Just stop for a moment.
Take a breath.
Look around.
Love your neighbour.
Love your partner.
Love the stranger.
Give money to ones who do not have.
Give smiles to those who seem sad and serious.
Look into the eyes of a fellow humans.
Let go of your restrictions and just go and show your love to your dear ones.
Time is passing by, do not wait until you are dead and tired!
Do it now!
Wake up and LIVE!
P.S. Tell everybody that The World Revolution has started, we are in the world!
Join us!
Brake your old habits and patterns!
Love Yourself!
Hallelujah!
I can see that people here are so afraid. They pass by in their fast cars and they even do not want to see us, because we might be dangerous.
They are ashamed that there are still some crazy kids who think that they do not have to buy a car, buy a ride, buy a life...
They do not dare to look into my eyes.
I look.
I see.
I cry.
People are not allowed to walk everywhere on the Earth anymore. Highways are so dangerous.
Fast. Faster. Faster.
And you cannot go over the river because there is only highway going over.
We saw signs which forbidded us to walk next to the roads.
We had to find places where we could stand,
and watch as cars passed by,
usually one person driving,
staring without seeing us, without having any emotions.
What is happening?
Where are you all rushing?
Don't you have children who want to see the world?
Don't you have any friends who hitchike?
Haven't you ever be in a situation where there is no other option than just standing next to the road and hoping that somebody will take you somewhere,
anywhere! Just out from this abandoned place...
So,
we were on our way to Quebec city from Montreal, but we only managed to get less than half way there. 5 cars. We ended up in a really kitch place called Madrid. Surreal. Plastic dinosaurs. Smashed cars. Cars with huge tyres. Flags on top of the hotel-restaurant. TV full of monster car shows. Shows.
This is all a big show-off.
But one dinosaur had broken his neck.
It felt little dead.
Is this American dream or what?
Nobody went to Quebec this evening.
We decided to go to a bush. There was a one.
Not much people passing by on this rue Moulin Rouge there.
We fried some bread that we got from the gas station and covered it with superoily peanut butter.
You know, those are the things people can eat when there is not much else to eat. You get your energy at least.
And the Sun went down and we crawled into our sweet tent!
Nature!
Mother Earth!
We realised that out there you are always protected. There is always space! There is peace!
Highway continued roaring,
but the frogs sang it over - they have the spring going on!
Birds.
Small fresh leaves putting their noses out from the Earth.
Yeah,
this was our first night to camp outside in Canada.
It is so easy to start to worry,
but if you have a chance to be out in the Wild, then you are safe! Just have a sleeping bag and a tent and it is all good.
They are saying nowadays that you shouldn't sleep in a bush like this,
but I have to tell you what the Earth whispered to me:
"Thank You guys for being here with me! Nobody has ever slept under my spring birches, here in this "pointless" bush, they say it is not a nice forest... Thank You Children, I am taking care of you always! I miss the touch of the Human-Being. They are in the cars and wearing gloves in these days. I want to feel them! Trust me, touch me, be with me!"
Go to sleep with the Sun and wake up with the Sun - this is the natural cycle, supportive!
And there were horses in my dream, I was riding again! This seems like a faraway dream already for now...
The sky was crying in the next morning,
we went back to the crazy Madrid place,
stayed inside and asked people if the happen to go to Quebec.....hmm... anywhere? Montreal?
For me it felt like it is time to go back to Montreal cause I felt my passport might be there.
So,
in the rain there we were standing,
and showing our wet sign. Montreal was there. White pickup car really stopped and we jumped in! Huh! This guy was talking french and he had 5 children. I guess that was the reason why he stopped :)
Back in the city!
My passport there! 37th floor in a huge business building was our destination. We were waiting in a room 13 for the ambassador. What a view! This is business! And we were just sleeping in the nature and now we are there, in between fancy suits and ties. Contrasts. This is our light~work~way.
This hitchiking trip made us understood that this is Lightwork - that we are standing next to the road and causing some thoughts and feelingsto arise in peoples mind - shame, blame, anger, laughter, memories.. all what comes. And we are offering them a chance to change their everyday patterns, allow something new to come in, something strange, something unexperienced!
Take it,
take us,
the children of the Light.
It is hard for us as well.
But this is what I am here for. I want my children to have the possibility to go to the world without working their asses off and waiting until they have paid off all the loans and children raised up and death in their minds... I want my children to have land to sleep on, dream on and walk on.
Please people!
Just stop for a moment.
Take a breath.
Look around.
Love your neighbour.
Love your partner.
Love the stranger.
Give money to ones who do not have.
Give smiles to those who seem sad and serious.
Look into the eyes of a fellow humans.
Let go of your restrictions and just go and show your love to your dear ones.
Time is passing by, do not wait until you are dead and tired!
Do it now!
Wake up and LIVE!
P.S. Tell everybody that The World Revolution has started, we are in the world!
Join us!
Brake your old habits and patterns!
Love Yourself!
Hallelujah!
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