About the Miracles

I told to myself that when I do get into Masters studies of technical physics in Tallinn Technical University it will be a miracle. On the last day before the math-physics test, I didn't feel like studying anymore. My body told me not to.
My mind mind screaming - "You need to study this and that and this and that, cause otherwise you won't do the test! There is so much you do not know anything about!"

I was listening to those voices and I had to decide. Well, it is hard to ignore the body when I have worked on listening to it more and more in my life lately. But I still remembered how it felt when I was in Tartu University, studying for the tests - I could force myself to study more (although even at this time I was nothing compared with some of my roommates... I usually ended up putting materials under the pillow and getting a nice rest... or going out for an adventure (winter-swimming or such..))...

Anyhow, in the middle of this conversation in my head I decided that I will surrender now.
"I choose to trust the Universe and everything it includes! When I have to get in, I will!"
A voice in me was actually saying that I do not need to study more... that I know enough.

I went to bed.

The Test.
Yes, I saw that it was about the same as last year. I didn't know everything. I did my best though.
Mr. Suurvarik took a look on it when the time was over and he said: "Well, why haven't you finished this and didn't you know that .... , but your result is not zero and as you see you are the only one doing it - you will get in! What will be your subject then?"

I left the room, being calm and polite. And when I got into the toilet I jumped up-and-down from happiness! It felt like being released under the pressure and that I am able to do things like this!
And as I promised myself - I have to believe in Miracles. Again. And again.

(It is easy to look back and say that it was no miracle... that there wasn't anything hard at all... but I gave a promise, so I will keep it. And this is how the world is - stands upon love and is bigger than we think it is.)


Well, I am now heading towards studying oceanography and being a specialist in University of Tartu and getting back on track with the research group of Marine Optics.
White curtains are ruling my room now and finally I can unpack myself after all this travel time.

Though, new horizons still invite me and I will just find another form to travel and visit friends.

And as I am more and more having a home to come and visit, I will be delighted to invite you over!