Kokkuvõte, soe ja jagamine.

Nii vajalik on teha kokkuvõtteid.
Meie jutustus Sandriga oma rännust sai esmakordselt täispikkuses välja räägitud. Me polnud ise ka seda kunagi nii teinud ja kogemus oli suur. Läksin koju justkui oleksin tulnud pikalt rännult, kus kõik ümber on uus ja kus mõte on avar ja piiritu.

Internaadi saal osutus ütlemata mõnusaks ja hubaseks ruumiks, kuhu mahtus just parasjagu inimesi. Mõnus oli näha oma klassijuhatajat, vanavanemaid, pere, sõpru Tartust ja Tallinnast, lapsepõlvesõpru ja teisi inimesi, keda meie ränd kokku kutsus.

Polnudki küsimust, mida rääkida - kõike, mis parasjagu pinnale ujus. Muidugi oli vaja paljut ka ütlemata jätta, sest ühte aastat paari tunni sisse on ikka päris kunsttükk mahutada. Tasakaalustasime Sandriga teineteist, et tervikpilt oleks nii detailne kui ka ülevaatlik.

Minu jaoks oli murdepunktiks see, kui rääkisin Kanada purjetamissuvest. Laulsin ka "Leiulaulu", olles ise üllatunud, kui hea tunne seda teha oli. Jutustasin, mida tegime paadiga ja sellest, et jätsin oma tagasilennupileti kasutamata ... ja siis ühtäkki avastasin end pisarates.
Tundsin, kuidas terve ruum oli minu kurbuse tunnet täis. Inimesed tundsid ka.
Võtsin end kokku ja laulsin meremehelaulu "Haul away Joe", mida Ty mulle õpetas.
See tõi mind kohale, rahustas, ja lubas jätkata.

Isegi kui on kurbust, on nii hea seda kogeda - see on tugev, see on midagi, mis liigutab.

Palju on õppida sellest, mis on siin, Eestimaal.
Ja ema ütles, et kui ütlesin, et lähen Ameerikasse, ei arvanud, et olen hull. Aga kui ütlesin, et tulen Rakkesse, mõtles ta küll, et olen hull.

Järgmine hullus - eks see olegi minekurada. Hullus = hirm?

Aitäh kõigile,
kes on kaasa mõelnud,
seda praegu teevad
või kes kunagi siia satuvad.

Üks reis
võib olla terve elu.

A thought is a travel.

While being at home, 

while waiting for Laurits to fall asleep

I can travel.

I can see you in your dreams,

I can see the world unseen.

Energy has no boundaries and

if you learn how to see 

with the eyes of energy,

there are no limits at all.

So you,

mother at home,

even you have all the chance

to see and feel

what is there

outside of your small world

of a growing child.

Rännulood kodupaigas

Life goes on.

We still travel on our paths.

Marian is now here: meieelurakkes.blogspot.com

Sander mostly here: hiios.blogspot.com


World is being created. Every breath. Every thought.

Think well!

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Nomaadide hoburännak Mehhikos // The Nomads Journey in Mexico

08.10.10

2 years from the day where we started to fly, to our travels. We just had one way ticket to Mexico. No time schedule.
It all just unraveled and guided us forward. Many turns, loops and meetings. 6 months in Mexico. I ended up staying in Canada for another 6 months and just exactly one year ago, on the 8th of October 2009 (08.10.09) I landed again in Estonia.
For me this year in here has been very various, very life-changing and above and under it all - incredibly widening and grounding. I find myself in the middle of lessons which teach me to live. Again and again. From many different perspectives.

Right now I am taking first steps on the road of becoming a teacher. Let's see where it leads.
Right now me and Sander are invited to go to one or two small schools on the west coast of Estonia - to speak in a "geography" lesson about our travel in Mexico. This invitation came after we performed in Matsalu Nature-Film-Festival, a month ago. Sander put together an exhibition - 12 big black-and-white photos about Nomads United horse caravan.

I had an accordion with me and along and without that we sang some songs in local languages, from ceremonies and our daily life. Some stories were told and questions asked.

Here is a video about the event what took place that evening. In the end you can see us for a moment!



This was a great experience for both of us and I am glad and surprised at the same time that people are continuously interested and we can learn from sharing. Just to inspire one people to take a step towards his/her biggest dreams or fears - this is huge, this a gift we can offer.


I celebrate this day. I now feel that another circle has become whole and I can move on. It seems to me that it takes as long to come back as long you stayed away.

Gratitude is inside me - for all the people who are in sharing, who we have met on the road, who have taught us, challenged us, made us cry, laugh and dream.
And people who have been and who are in Estonia - now welcoming and listening and being. It is a gift.
I am eager to see what the next day brings. I feel that some of you in the world I will see again. And some of you are strongly in my heart. And some of you I have never met before, but I will in the future. And some of you I will never see again. Yet, it all is beautifully weaved together as a magnificent carpet.

I share my love with the world.
I am in love.

Marian

Life on my own.

Sander and I just went through a course where we learned to work as Aura Mediators.

It feels like real life.
It feels in peace.
It feels like doing something that I have always wanted to do.
It feels whole.

Spirit integrates the body.
It is the New World.
It is Life.

Stars on the dark sky

They fall.
It is fall.
It is August.

New moon.
Letting go's and saying hello's.

Today I met again with the guy who was on the plain to Mexico, 2 years ago. Then he was in the Mexican rainbow. And then in the horse caravan. And now he is in here. Staying for some days after the Finland Rainbow.

Looking and feeling him and the surrounding hostel Euphoria (filled with rainbowers and hippies and everybody), I remembered how we lived in Mexico and maybe a bit like it in Canada too. And how now my life feels so different. I have connection with this way of living too and it has and is part of my growth and life. At the same time I am happy to have the choice and freedom to live in another way.

Walking home on the lonely streets of Tallinn. Warm night.
This is so right,
hands moving with the flow.
Something grows and something goes.
Light shines through.



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In Estonia I have met with some days without electricity and all what comes with it and it has gave me pretty strong feelings about what might happen when some systems fail. My choice is to go to countryside, to grow my own food and to get a horse.
It just feels more and more real and life in the city seems like a nice game to play, but not for too long.

Old energies are falling apart and from this dust new phoenix can rise.
Everybody has to wake her/him up.


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Roads are crossing again and I am waking up for communication and meetings.
Thank you,
that you are alive.