Life in Wide Lands

Hello Dear Friends who still find their way here!


I now announce that there is a new website for the things that are present for me and my family.
The page is in the process and becoming more whole with each day. Right now it is mostly in Estonian, but the English part will be launched soon as well.

www.avar.ee

Marian, Laurits, Mihkel - Avarmaa 2012

My family - with this I mean my partner Mihkel, my son Laurits and also my brother Sander. As Sander is doing a lot and living here and there, his input right now is more spiritual than earthy. But we work as united force and we shall see where it takes us.

In the centre of our doings there is a place on Earth - Avarmaa (Widelands). It is our land to work with and it is located in the middle of Estonia. We grow with the land and it gives us much wisdom and insight and also space to create.

Friends who want to come over, are warmly welcome.

I am thrilled that I some of the friends that I met during the travel, have found their way here already!
I name them here - Emily (Canada/Sweden), Dylan (Canada) and just few days ago I saw Maritza (Mexico) sitting here in my couch!

Avarmaa tipi - view to the East

We are brainstorming to create an event next summer here in Avarmaa, so that you will have a reason to come to Estonia and get inspiration and sense of meaning in life.

So, to be updated with our information, check out avar.ee from time to time and lets see each other when the right time comes!

Sychronicity

What happens now is part of the connections and butterfly-effects and sync.
I observe that people are making a choice to eat raw-food-fruits.
I feel it works and it gives new perspectives and chances to change. This takes courage.

I met permaculture on my travels. Now I really meet it here too. Thank You all, who talked and worked with it. The seed is starting to grow!

My Canada came to visit me - Dylan from Victoria and good-old-Freyja-times came from Sweden and made good food, started to build a bird-feeder and sparked us with some good canadian-activism. Thank you much!

Emily sent me The Dolphin.
Dolphins are swimming around. Ocean in my heart. Even in inlands.

I have smelt the spring. I am sure it comes.

And 2012 is here. As I thought that it will happen by this time - I do have a child.

This travel continues to teach me.

Whoever is there - there is a meaning in every act, in every word that resonates with You.

There is nothing more important than this sentence :D

Reisiõhtu pildimeenutus - pictures from the TravelStoryNight

Here we are. Now. October 2011. 3 years from the beginning of the Travel. Story is told.

Kuula!

Rainer Nõlvak, "Teeme Ära" ja "Let's Do it World'i" eestvedaja, räägib oma kogemusest, inspiratsioonist, maailma muutumisest ja igaühe panusest selles!

Motiveeriv!

http://r2.err.ee/saated?saade=285&sub=292 

Kokkuvõte, soe ja jagamine.

Nii vajalik on teha kokkuvõtteid.
Meie jutustus Sandriga oma rännust sai esmakordselt täispikkuses välja räägitud. Me polnud ise ka seda kunagi nii teinud ja kogemus oli suur. Läksin koju justkui oleksin tulnud pikalt rännult, kus kõik ümber on uus ja kus mõte on avar ja piiritu.

Internaadi saal osutus ütlemata mõnusaks ja hubaseks ruumiks, kuhu mahtus just parasjagu inimesi. Mõnus oli näha oma klassijuhatajat, vanavanemaid, pere, sõpru Tartust ja Tallinnast, lapsepõlvesõpru ja teisi inimesi, keda meie ränd kokku kutsus.

Polnudki küsimust, mida rääkida - kõike, mis parasjagu pinnale ujus. Muidugi oli vaja paljut ka ütlemata jätta, sest ühte aastat paari tunni sisse on ikka päris kunsttükk mahutada. Tasakaalustasime Sandriga teineteist, et tervikpilt oleks nii detailne kui ka ülevaatlik.

Minu jaoks oli murdepunktiks see, kui rääkisin Kanada purjetamissuvest. Laulsin ka "Leiulaulu", olles ise üllatunud, kui hea tunne seda teha oli. Jutustasin, mida tegime paadiga ja sellest, et jätsin oma tagasilennupileti kasutamata ... ja siis ühtäkki avastasin end pisarates.
Tundsin, kuidas terve ruum oli minu kurbuse tunnet täis. Inimesed tundsid ka.
Võtsin end kokku ja laulsin meremehelaulu "Haul away Joe", mida Ty mulle õpetas.
See tõi mind kohale, rahustas, ja lubas jätkata.

Isegi kui on kurbust, on nii hea seda kogeda - see on tugev, see on midagi, mis liigutab.

Palju on õppida sellest, mis on siin, Eestimaal.
Ja ema ütles, et kui ütlesin, et lähen Ameerikasse, ei arvanud, et olen hull. Aga kui ütlesin, et tulen Rakkesse, mõtles ta küll, et olen hull.

Järgmine hullus - eks see olegi minekurada. Hullus = hirm?

Aitäh kõigile,
kes on kaasa mõelnud,
seda praegu teevad
või kes kunagi siia satuvad.

Üks reis
võib olla terve elu.

A thought is a travel.

While being at home, 

while waiting for Laurits to fall asleep

I can travel.

I can see you in your dreams,

I can see the world unseen.

Energy has no boundaries and

if you learn how to see 

with the eyes of energy,

there are no limits at all.

So you,

mother at home,

even you have all the chance

to see and feel

what is there

outside of your small world

of a growing child.

Rännulood kodupaigas

Life goes on.

We still travel on our paths.

Marian is now here: meieelurakkes.blogspot.com

Sander mostly here: hiios.blogspot.com


World is being created. Every breath. Every thought.

Think well!

Oma Hobu artikkel Jaanuar 2011

Täisekraanil lugemiseks klikka siia !

Nomaadide hoburännak Mehhikos // The Nomads Journey in Mexico

08.10.10

2 years from the day where we started to fly, to our travels. We just had one way ticket to Mexico. No time schedule.
It all just unraveled and guided us forward. Many turns, loops and meetings. 6 months in Mexico. I ended up staying in Canada for another 6 months and just exactly one year ago, on the 8th of October 2009 (08.10.09) I landed again in Estonia.
For me this year in here has been very various, very life-changing and above and under it all - incredibly widening and grounding. I find myself in the middle of lessons which teach me to live. Again and again. From many different perspectives.

Right now I am taking first steps on the road of becoming a teacher. Let's see where it leads.
Right now me and Sander are invited to go to one or two small schools on the west coast of Estonia - to speak in a "geography" lesson about our travel in Mexico. This invitation came after we performed in Matsalu Nature-Film-Festival, a month ago. Sander put together an exhibition - 12 big black-and-white photos about Nomads United horse caravan.

I had an accordion with me and along and without that we sang some songs in local languages, from ceremonies and our daily life. Some stories were told and questions asked.

Here is a video about the event what took place that evening. In the end you can see us for a moment!



This was a great experience for both of us and I am glad and surprised at the same time that people are continuously interested and we can learn from sharing. Just to inspire one people to take a step towards his/her biggest dreams or fears - this is huge, this a gift we can offer.


I celebrate this day. I now feel that another circle has become whole and I can move on. It seems to me that it takes as long to come back as long you stayed away.

Gratitude is inside me - for all the people who are in sharing, who we have met on the road, who have taught us, challenged us, made us cry, laugh and dream.
And people who have been and who are in Estonia - now welcoming and listening and being. It is a gift.
I am eager to see what the next day brings. I feel that some of you in the world I will see again. And some of you are strongly in my heart. And some of you I have never met before, but I will in the future. And some of you I will never see again. Yet, it all is beautifully weaved together as a magnificent carpet.

I share my love with the world.
I am in love.

Marian

Life on my own.

Sander and I just went through a course where we learned to work as Aura Mediators.

It feels like real life.
It feels in peace.
It feels like doing something that I have always wanted to do.
It feels whole.

Spirit integrates the body.
It is the New World.
It is Life.

Stars on the dark sky

They fall.
It is fall.
It is August.

New moon.
Letting go's and saying hello's.

Today I met again with the guy who was on the plain to Mexico, 2 years ago. Then he was in the Mexican rainbow. And then in the horse caravan. And now he is in here. Staying for some days after the Finland Rainbow.

Looking and feeling him and the surrounding hostel Euphoria (filled with rainbowers and hippies and everybody), I remembered how we lived in Mexico and maybe a bit like it in Canada too. And how now my life feels so different. I have connection with this way of living too and it has and is part of my growth and life. At the same time I am happy to have the choice and freedom to live in another way.

Walking home on the lonely streets of Tallinn. Warm night.
This is so right,
hands moving with the flow.
Something grows and something goes.
Light shines through.



*

In Estonia I have met with some days without electricity and all what comes with it and it has gave me pretty strong feelings about what might happen when some systems fail. My choice is to go to countryside, to grow my own food and to get a horse.
It just feels more and more real and life in the city seems like a nice game to play, but not for too long.

Old energies are falling apart and from this dust new phoenix can rise.
Everybody has to wake her/him up.


*



Roads are crossing again and I am waking up for communication and meetings.
Thank you,
that you are alive.

Growth with the Family

What a wonder it is to be born from a Mother and to be inspired by the Father.

Two persons bring you into this world. And no matter how you communicate with them when you grow up, they have been the holy channel to this place, giving you a body to use, patterns to reshape and things to give up to.

In one moment they start to be your friends as well. You see the beauty and strength of accepting each other. There is this unconditional love in the bottom of all the layers - this is what gives you the chance to work on finding it and bringing it into bloom. Sometimes there is not much else to do about it than to live your own life to its fullest and surest. This will inspirate your parents too, cause they see you, even if you don't speak to them. Connection is there, from the beginning of your existence.

Forgiveness is the greatest.
Problems will solve themselves when you let them loose.
Light comes out (appears) when you bring Love in.


Family - I love that there is such a thing in the world!


Brother is sleeping in our travel tent in the garden.
It's morning.
It's Norah Jones' voice.
It's smooth.
It's the Day of the Acts.
It's time to live. Again.
Again.
Again.


And with all the time we are together, we grow. Inevitably.

Brother Seagull taking a look to the vastness of one kind. The Sea and Sunset.

Tallinn, Estonia

"Iga päev, mis meile antud on, ära lase käest."

Mari Kalkun

"Väiksed kallid Marid."

Rainbow at Home

My home knows how to transform into a cheerful place for kids and adults, for creaters and companions. It feels that there is no need to go out to search for a great place to be - all comes here on the right time. My first painting in this home is also getting ready there in the corner.
Those light-kids live in the neighborhood and come in through the window.

Joy in the Morning

Morning with fresh wind and some distant city sounds and with warm summer-air  --- yes, this night I was sleeping outside, on a hammock. What a good invention and what a good influence on me - puts things into the right place and makes me feel whole (gives me a feeling of travelling and Mexico).

Balance is the key.
If I get stuck at home I need to go and have some sauna and great talks with kind girl and bike-ride there on the sea-promenade of Pirita. Sea gives freedom and good air and blows some things away.

Science needs some compliments from creativity, paiting and singing.

Order needs some chaos.


Thoughts manifest so fast and also intuition starts talking about some things which are about to happen, though in the moment the information appears, mind is not aware of it yet. Last night we talked about marriage, kids and about a friend of mine and when I got home I found a letter from him with brief sayings that he will marry soon!
Seems like a coincidence?
For me it looks like we caught the info and just interpreted it in our own way but there was a chance to put it together right and say it out even before getting the "real" info and letter :)
Have you read Anastasia books - I remember she telling about the information field which is available and you just need to "plug" yourself in and then you don't need to learn things by heart anymore - you ask and you shall recieve.


People in the world are there to help each other. Marriage in Estonian is called "Abielu", which can be straightforwarldy translated: "Help"+"Life". So, two people get together to take care of each other and to be for the highest help and support, unconditionally.


Here the music started to play and Oren Lavie "Her Morning Elegance" gives its touch to the day.

Life in Tallinn is as beautiful as life in the forests and as in Mexico and Canada. It is just different. And there is a certain time to experience each place.
Today I leave my home into hold and go to my parents place where the strawberries are getting ripe.

People in the world with whom I have met and those who stay behind the scenes - I thank you for being part of my life, for following what I am saying and for appearing in my thoughts and heart.

Jasmine is blooming and giving up its smell so that I can recieve it and be so grateful and surrounded of its gift. This is what everybody can do with their love, kindness and thoughts - to give them up and out so that the world can experience it. There's nothing to loose. Richness comes from great sharing.

Open Space

Where the wild wind blows.

Oh the fly from Rome to Munich.
25th of June, 2010

Small Joys

Marian and Sander went to see how the Creation-Place in Tallinn looks and feels like. This time Sander was the "tour-guide" and reminded Marian how it feels to be around artists and inspiration. Marian recognized the feeling and started to think more about using time to create something new, to express and to fulfill the dreams.
Sander is doing great in photography and communication. Water flows well.
Marian is walking in between science and art and asking questions from herself.

Sister and Brother went to a shop to get some equipment for Marian's flat to have the possibility to listen to music with good quality. They succeeded and now the playing music is inspirating Marian to write the words. Now she can sit down to the couch they just brought home from Laura's ex-apartment and lay back and go into the world of sounds.

A wine from Italy, Aglianico, tasted so good that the guests and siblings enjoyed it with grace and happiness and wishes were said out in the words.

There is much in the world to experience, to learn from. Spiritual things on the Earth are connected with the ground. If you don't focuse on anything, nothing happens. By doing less you do more.


"All I know about life is you have to enjoy it."

Warmth Moves. Italy. Benevento.

What is it?

That it all changes - feeling and understanding about the aspects of life inside.

First time again I think about travelling,

about being on the road or in a place where I wake up in the morning and I don't know what the day will bring - I have all the freedom to decide what opportunities I take to live.

Now I am in the plan - studying about satellites and ocean. Some things are interesting to me, but some talks are vibrating so tough and tense that I am unable to be in sync with them. I see that I am not willing to think about marine optics all the time. Flowers on the roof caught my attention. Making pictures through sunglasses made me happy. Concert in an archeological site gave me the feeling of magic and wonder.

Life now is a matter of perspective.

Mexico comes alive.

In tonight's dream I saw myself hugging with Alex, the Hawaiian girl who has left her Earhtly form. We were saying goodbye. The feeling of love and care was so strong. And her dark long hair were feelable when I hugged her.

Maybe she is leaving the planet now. Or maybe she is incarnating again and leaving the spirit form and old human form behind. Maybe I will meet with her when she has found a new body...

And it even doesn't matter. When it happens, I will know.

It takes time to understand and learn about life and living. And there are so many aspects that will reveal themselves only when you reach to them. You cannot go slower than your shadow. And you cannot go much faster either. Some laws work on this planet.

Still,

there are many viewingpoints and things can seem very different.

Rebel in me is rising its head.

Time will tell.

Stories from Tallinn

While being where I am there are some beautiful things happening. 

This ship is Kaisamoor, born on 1939. I love cycling by and saying hello to the seamen and giving my hand when needed. Now they are out to the sea for a month or so, but when they come back...

Last inspiration and first drawing here in Köie-home. Earth and Water is in this picture. Kaisamoor is carrying this with her.

This sight is idyll, a dream and something that gives the feeling of beautiful life. I have been lucky enough to visit a friend living in this place.